The Possible Goals

I am sharing words that are not my own.

These words helped me

get back on the horse 

in this Year Of The Horse

May they help you 

if you need help.

“Usually we all set impossible goals and try to achieve them. 

Then when we fail we decide it really is impossible.

And once we confirm it is impossible,

we stop putting forth even the little effort

that we were putting into it.

After that all we do is blame the world,

blame God and everyone.

Our whole life ends in blaming others. 

So first fix a practical goal.

Realize what is possible

When you know something is possible, start 

working toward it.

Even small victories that you achieve can bring great encouragement.

This will give you tremendous courage and confidence.

You will then start moving steadily toward deeper Truths.

You will start to achieve and live what I call, “Living Enlightenment.”

—Swami Nithyananda 

(Living Enlightenment) 

Nithyananda

The Drop Sixty

The Drop 60

I recently read:

“Concentration is Strength,

Diffusion is weakness.”

My issue is

*

I got a head full of ideas

That are drivin’ me insane”

–Bob Dylan

*

Today when hyper-creativity took me,

I dove onto the mat

like it was a life raft,

even though it was not yoga time

with a quick intention:

“5 Asanas.”

12 Breaths Each.

Then,

I got up.

Went out the door

ran my errands,

Out in the city

Relaxed.

No rush of ideas

that arrive

when  I can’t do anything about them.

Mind clear.

everything was cool.

in the moment.

 felt more alive.

*

I want to make my imagination

useful,

Creative,

not let it be distracting.

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The Drop 60 worked today.

Just a permission slip

to check in and ground myself

when the head takes off on its own trip.

A new way to choose

when to let imagination flow

and when to say no.

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I don’t eat all my food for the day at once.

I don’t drink all my water for the day at once.

Why do all my yoga at once?

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little yogas

are

intermittent bites of Calm

not one 16 course meal

It helps me control my mind

make it a creative I power I use,

Not a power that uses me,

unless I give it permission

when I’m ready to download

from wherever it is

ideas come from.

I

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I AM CROTO-MEAT!

I AM CROTOMEAT

* * *

An acronym

Mnemonic

connecting

Mind

to

Mantra

For

Well Being

&

Well Doing.

*

I am CROTOMEAT

is 

an otherworldly acronym for:

I Am

Calm

Relaxed

On

Top

Of

My

Emotions

And

Thoughts

Breathing this mantra

throughout the day

makes that happen.

The strange name

makes it memorable.

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U.D.I.B.A. 

is a ch’i healing practice,

much like

qi gong,

reiki,

acupuncture

meditation,

or yoga,

but it is practiced

on one’s self in stillness.

Udiba is:

Unrushed

Deliberate

Inner 

Body 

Awareness. 

*

In a state of frenzy

In a state of rushing,

we lose strength and become divided within,

and divided we fall.

The mind wants to race ahead of the body.

*

We also become divided

and weaken ourselves

when we are in a state of uncertainty.

*

U.D.I.B.A.

reverses this

&

makes the body,

mind

and Spirit

One.

*

This State of Presence

Instantly

Creates

A

Healing

Vibration

In

The

Body.

*

Breathe in deeply:

Unrushed Deliberate Inner Body Awareness.

As you do it

make the breath

Unrushed and Deliberate.

When the Breath has slowly filled the body entirely

Breathe out

as if in a slow sigh

through the nose

silently chanting again:

Unrushed Deliberate Inner Body Awareness

*

As this Unrushed Deliberate Breathing Continues

and Relaxation deepens

Begin to Sense the Inner Body

the energy/innergy

inside your body

inside your bones

Ch’i

*

Start with the hands or feet

Feel if you can sense them

Then try to sense the energy inside of them

*

If it doesn’t happen right away,

give it time.

It is a practice,

and inner body awareness develops

through the practice.

*

When Whole Inner Body Awareness is Achieved

You can Breathe in,

And feel the energy

come in through the soles of your feet

Rising up through your body

To the top of your head

And Return.

It brings a sense of joy

and well being.

*

If you have an issue

with a certain part of the body

you can focus the ch’i

by sensing the inner body energy

in that part of the body

that wants healing.

*

In time,

even in active living,

awareness of the inner body

becomes more of a constant

with the practice of UDIBA.

*

Unrushed and Deliberate living

gives  a strength.

Health of Body and Mind is Improved.

* * * * *

Croto-Meat and Udiba

are traveling companions

that are changing my life

for the better.

They are not new concepts

just  a new way

to remember an ancient wisdom.

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The Hour Of The Changing Light

She teaches me

how fast it all goes,

how to savor This.

Were it not for Her

I may have spent life

not living,

only doing,

fretting and frittering

my fading hours away

in endless to-do’s

and

never

ever

ever

be.

 *

She makes me feel

a soft yet horribly deep sorrow

at the time I’ve lost

within the false state:

Alive, but not recognizing Life! 

The state of unreason

cultures are built upon.

*

She reminds me to honor

in Sacred Devotion and Gratitude

The setting Sun,

sacred in its own right,

and all it represents:

All that Enters and gives Life,

then leaves us alone in Night,

to softly find a way back in,

to lure us into Light again.

*

The cycles of Life,

of Light

of Love,

The cycles of All Creation.

*

All this She Teaches

in Her sensual adieu

To the God of The Golden Orange Light,

whose Emergence and Disappearance

Form the Magic Hour

Where yin and yang kiss,

And become one another,

And the veil between

fades to naught.

*

The realm of opposites join here:

Ra to Luna.

Birth to Death.

Light to Dark.

God to Man,

The hour in which we may

 whisper to Spirits,

And Spirits may whisper

Sacred Truths to us.

 *

She devotes Herself

to Ra’s egress

with all Her Western faces.

Her delicate, graceful fingers,

gently caressing even the last fleeting trace

of precious fading Light.

*

I feel Her yearning, reaching,

even unto the last dying sunbeam.

So glorious, to see a Tree in Prayer!

So glorious to be aware!

So glorious to have Eyes that See,

 if only in shared sunsets,

in which She helps me enter,

The Sacred Awareness.

*

She awakens me

through gentleness

through delicacy,

That I may see with Pure eyes.

*

She lures my Awareness

 into the most subtle aspects of Her Grace

That I may recognize within myself,

all I am drawn to in Her.

In the breath, in the poise, in the fingers,

in the step, in the balance, in the motion,

in the gentleness and the delicacy,

the busy noise of mind can fade

that I may discover

even the to-do’s

are better achieved

When lost in the gentleness and grace of the doing.

*

My Great Teacher,

What greater lesson could be taught,

than how to be Alive in Life?

*

Magic things happen

through the Sacred Awareness,

In the Hour of the Changing Light.

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Well Doing

When you’re washing the dishes

You’re not just washing the dishes

You’re forming The Doer

In the manner of your Doing.

* * * * * * * * * * *

When you’re watching TV

You’re not just watching TV

You’re forming your Observer

in the manner of your Watching.

* * * * * * * * * * *

When you’re waiting in line

You’re not just waiting in line,

You’re forming your Physical Grace/Composure

in the manner of your waiting.

* * * * * * * * * * *

With Mindfulness in All Things,

All Things Become Sadhana.

* * * * * * * * * * *

Focusing On What You Do

And How You Do

Helps You Do

In All Doing

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The Dispassionate Observer

(I had written this before the “Somewhere To Go” entry below. 

I decided not to post it when I found my my motivation. 

But I think I found my reason because I had given up searching for it. 

I accepted the place between places, and observed myself within it. 

So I decided to post this in case someone else is in the place 

between places and happens to stumble upon this remote locale

on the edge of Being, where precious few actual readers exist, 

and lone Zengirl tends bar, awaiting the entrance of a stranger 

who either needs a healing word, or who can give one.) 

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AWARENESS. 

The Darkness Within

Subtle, Pervasive

The Elusive Obvious

Watch It!

Awareness with no Judgment

No Attachment

No Good

No Bad

I made a little sign

I see often in my day

“How Am I?”

When I see myself

With Unclouded Eyes,

I ask,

Am I serving my intention

Of who I want to Be,

And what I want to Give?

And when I don’t know who I want to be,

or what I want to give,

In moments I feel I’ve outlived

My Reason, My Story,

And Find I’m Still here,

I Just Observe the Being I am

As I am.

* * * * * * * * * * *

Emptiness is more peaceful than The Storm

I feel Grateful for The Nothingness

* * * * * * * * * * *

I observe remnants of a past me

Running on a Familiar

Which no longer has context

The movie feels over

But the camera’s still rolling, expectantly,

And I don’t know what to gun for anymore.

Aware of me Now

With no Judgment

No Attachment

No Good

No Bad

I see me Doing, Being

And through this Dispassionate Observer Within,

I begin to Know, what Mind can only think.

The Answer that comes by Awareness,

Is the Answer.

The answer that comes by thinking

is another false and fleeting lead

that cannot satisfy,

just Mind’s False Promise of a better way,

In a fictional place called Future.

No mission, No horse, No Destination

Yet I still Observe me Doing and Being.

What is your reason? I ask of She,

Who locks Life outside her door,

Only to examine it within her mind.

I ask the One, the Doer, The Be-Her,

Who Does, and Is, Without Motivation

And She says:

I Do for the sake of Doing. 

I Am for the sake of Being. 

And I ask:

What is your pay off?

What motivates?

And She says:

Doing for Doing. 

Being for Being. 

The Truth of pay-off in Future

Is Wilde’s Two Tragedies:

One is not getting what one wants

The other is getting it.

Either Way You Are Not Fed.

So be fed with what is here.

Do what is to be done.

Be as you are.

Stop pondering life,

or you will never live it.

I see the irony of self

In telling myself to stop pondering,

a helpful conclusion,

unearthed,

only after much pondering.

Were I not acquainted with Non-Dualism,

I’d feel all wisdom is insane or one sided.

Thank you Suzuki.

Thank you All Great Teachers

Who make the road possible.

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