The Courage To Dream Again

(adapted from a letter to a friend)

Return, Fear, and The Nature of True Dreams.

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1. RETURN: Return to whatever dream, if it happened, would fill you up, and make you happy. But really imagine it happening. Is it the work that makes you happy in and of itself, or is it the recognition, the pay-off? What work makes you happy, all by itself? What feels good? If we don’t know what that is, that’s ok. At least we’re opening the door of wonder, to find out.

2. FEAR: We’re afraid to try again because we’re looking at it wrong. Let’s say you starred in your own film, won an Oscar, and I won a Pulitzer for my stuff. Now what? Pressure’s on. Are you a one hit wonder? Am I? There are expectations now. Let’s say we get a few successes, get used to that, but what then? Will it be a lifelong success, or will we fall out of fashion? Become has-beens? Is that less terrifying than being a never-was?

You and I are wrong to think our dreams are broken because our last efforts didn’t turn out the way we’d hoped. There is no finish line, no Destination except this moment; no ending point, except our last breath. Every time we try and hope for something, its always going to be the same risk. Doesn’t matter if the last thing failed or succeeded. The next thing will be just as risky. The same is true for everyone who tries for a dream, at any time at any age.

3. THE NATURE OF TRUE DREAMS: If our dreams are age restrictive, they’re not true dreams. You wanted to be an A-list actor before you were 30, and I wanted my novel to be a best-seller by that time. The reason these dreams weren’t real, is they had a finishline, a delusion disguised as hope that said, “When I hit THIS I’ve made it!

But like the #2 Fear paragraph says, there is no “made it!” No finishline that makes everything great, forever. Success can even increase pressure and fear. So if we still want those same things, if those really are our dreams, we need to change them up in our minds to be True Dreams. A true actor’s dream might be: I’m going to give my all to be the best actor I can be; I will devote the rest of my life to improving my craft to give all that I can.

Who can take that dream away? Who can stop us from doing that at any age? That is a dream independent of circumstance and industry, reliant only upon our Devotion. That is a lifelong mission statement. With that lifelong mission statement, whether failure or success comes, it won’t derail us.

Both success and failure are great at derailing dreamers. Look how many die at the top. Even if success lasted the rest of your life or mine, the fulfillment it brought would leave, unless the work is fulfilling, in and of itself, which takes us back to paragraph #1 RETURN.

That’s why we need to define that True dream, the work that is fulfilling all by itself, and that lifelong mission statement, that is independent of success and failure.

Success and Failure are ripples on a pond. But the True Dream, the Lifelong Mission Statement, is the Pond. We need the pond, not the ripples that come and go.

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The Unseen Disadvantage

THE RACE 

The first runner is 100 feet ahead of almost everyone 

but the second runner is very close behind him

The third runner is 50 feet behind the first two

The last runner is a shocking 100 feet the behind the first two. 

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Now a loudspeaker comes on revealing 

there is one last runner who has not even appeared on the horizon yet. 

An aerial view is offered of the running course, 

We now see each of the runners had a different starting point. 

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And now we see the runner who has not yet appeared on the horizon.

The distance he has had to cross is incomparably longer

than any other runner in the race.

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Though he is not yet in sight on the horizon, 

this view reveals 

the last runner to be miraculous. 

The greater distance he has traveled is now witnessed.

His endurance, perseverance, and relentless striving 

to conquer the disadvantage 

has revealed the true victor.  

The crowd cheers, reveling in his achievement. 

But he can’t hear them or see them. 

The distance is too great. 

He is looking ahead for the runners he can’t catch up to. 

He feels his race is lost, and begins to despair. 

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We can’t know another’s journey by watching the finish line. 

If we can’t see the whole picture, 

we can’t know who is in the lead, and who is falling behind

“The 10,000 things rise and fall without cease.” Lao Tzu. 

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When we see our neighbor who lives on the street

We can consider his unseen disadvantage 

that has led to the disadvantage we can see.

Compassion may replace short-sighted judgment.

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When we see someone doing so well 

that our own life suddenly seems insignificant

We can consider the distance 

that we have traveled

both within and externally.

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And if after consideration

we find no justification

for the lack of tantamount achievement in our own life,  

let’s not allow comparison to the well-doer to become self annihilation. 

Let’s allow the comparison to inspire the fire to Strive; 

that it may be received with empowering Gratitude 

and never the obstacle of resentment. 

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The Drop Sixty

The Drop 60

I recently read:

“Concentration is Strength,

Diffusion is weakness.”

My issue is

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I got a head full of ideas

That are drivin’ me insane”

–Bob Dylan

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Today when hyper-creativity took me,

I dove onto the mat

like it was a life raft,

even though it was not yoga time

with a quick intention:

“5 Asanas.”

12 Breaths Each.

Then,

I got up.

Went out the door

ran my errands,

Out in the city

Relaxed.

No rush of ideas

that arrive

when  I can’t do anything about them.

Mind clear.

everything was cool.

in the moment.

 felt more alive.

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I want to make my imagination

useful,

Creative,

not let it be distracting.

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The Drop 60 worked today.

Just a permission slip

to check in and ground myself

when the head takes off on its own trip.

A new way to choose

when to let imagination flow

and when to say no.

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I don’t eat all my food for the day at once.

I don’t drink all my water for the day at once.

Why do all my yoga at once?

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little yogas

are

intermittent bites of Calm

not one 16 course meal

It helps me control my mind

make it a creative I power I use,

Not a power that uses me,

unless I give it permission

when I’m ready to download

from wherever it is

ideas come from.

I

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I AM CROTO-MEAT!

I AM CROTOMEAT

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An acronym

Mnemonic

connecting

Mind

to

Mantra

For

Well Being

&

Well Doing.

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I am CROTOMEAT

is 

an otherworldly acronym for:

I Am

Calm

Relaxed

On

Top

Of

My

Emotions

And

Thoughts

Breathing this mantra

throughout the day

makes that happen.

The strange name

makes it memorable.

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U.D.I.B.A. 

is a ch’i healing practice,

much like

qi gong,

reiki,

acupuncture

meditation,

or yoga,

but it is practiced

on one’s self in stillness.

Udiba is:

Unrushed

Deliberate

Inner 

Body 

Awareness. 

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In a state of frenzy

In a state of rushing,

we lose strength and become divided within,

and divided we fall.

The mind wants to race ahead of the body.

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We also become divided

and weaken ourselves

when we are in a state of uncertainty.

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U.D.I.B.A.

reverses this

&

makes the body,

mind

and Spirit

One.

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This State of Presence

Instantly

Creates

A

Healing

Vibration

In

The

Body.

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Breathe in deeply:

Unrushed Deliberate Inner Body Awareness.

As you do it

make the breath

Unrushed and Deliberate.

When the Breath has slowly filled the body entirely

Breathe out

as if in a slow sigh

through the nose

silently chanting again:

Unrushed Deliberate Inner Body Awareness

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As this Unrushed Deliberate Breathing Continues

and Relaxation deepens

Begin to Sense the Inner Body

the energy/innergy

inside your body

inside your bones

Ch’i

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Start with the hands or feet

Feel if you can sense them

Then try to sense the energy inside of them

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If it doesn’t happen right away,

give it time.

It is a practice,

and inner body awareness develops

through the practice.

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When Whole Inner Body Awareness is Achieved

You can Breathe in,

And feel the energy

come in through the soles of your feet

Rising up through your body

To the top of your head

And Return.

It brings a sense of joy

and well being.

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If you have an issue

with a certain part of the body

you can focus the ch’i

by sensing the inner body energy

in that part of the body

that wants healing.

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In time,

even in active living,

awareness of the inner body

becomes more of a constant

with the practice of UDIBA.

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Unrushed and Deliberate living

gives  a strength.

Health of Body and Mind is Improved.

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Croto-Meat and Udiba

are traveling companions

that are changing my life

for the better.

They are not new concepts

just  a new way

to remember an ancient wisdom.

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A Love Letter

Someone I love was in suffering.

I wrote him a letter.

He placed it where he could see it daily.

He said it helped him.

I am sharing this letter here.

Maybe it will be of use to you.

The approach is always useful to me.

It is based in the teachings of Thich Nhat Hanh.

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My Dearest,

I’m so very sorry to hear you are struggling with things.

I believe in you and I have a suggestion.

Hanh says in practice, we can bring happiness to ANY moment.

Take the time to tend to yours, please.

Stop and take 20, just to breathe with an uplifting mantra,

with DEVOTION.

Check out of your life and into your breath.

Breathing in, I feel Calm.

Breathing out, I Smile.

Breathing in, Dwelling in this Present Moment

Breathing out, I Know this is a wonderful Moment.

(One of Hanh’s.)

Reversal mantras too, are an instant turn around.

Take the issue that is bringing you difficulty;

if it is prosperity for example:

Breathing in, I am Completely Relaxed.

Breathing out, I am earning well doing what I most love!

This practice can be called on to bring peace and a healing mindset for any life challenge.

There are two forms of prayer: supplication and affirmation.

When you affirm what you wish as if it has already happened,

that is a powerful prayer.

When you plead for circumstances to be different,

you affirm your deliverance has not happened.

I think this is why the sansrkit chants are celebratory.

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These are the times to lean on your practice.

You have a mala. Put it to use.

Its what it is around your neck for, Darling. : )

I love you so very much.

You have a Universe to turn to.

Don’t carry it all yourself, ok?

 

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The Whispering Love

“The Whispering Love That Watches Over”

Or

“Your Weird Little Cat”

a

kind

of

poem

by

me.

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There is a Love that loves all that you do

A Love that stands by you, Constant and True

All that you are, increases this Love

She sees you as pure as Heaven Above

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Your imperfect ways make this Love grow each day

Like you love your weird cat and her weird little ways

And when you feel off and slip into the dark

This Love that now watches increases in Heart

All that you choose only makes this Love more

You can’t mess it up, your breath makes Her soar

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This Love feels no anger or judgment or worse

There’s no disappointment, in Love you are first

and foremost in all that you are and you do

You can’t break this Love, for this Love has made you

And Love makes you still, and ever Love will

You are this Great Love, just surrender and feel

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Love is Eternal and can’t cost a thing

Love is a Presence not that diamond ring

Love is who sits by you when you’re alone

Love knows your thoughts and Love blesses your home

Love is the Light that you sometimes might see

At the edge of your eye, when you Simply Be

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Yes, Love like the Love that you have for your cat

Yet to this Great Love you are much more than that

For even if you love your cat with whole heart

You and your cat sadly someday must part

This Love that is watching you reading this now

Is Love that can’t fade for Love doesn’t know how

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If your canvas fades will your painting still stay?

Will your little home stand if the Earth goes away?

Could Earth even be without space to exist?

Could flowers still grow, without angels’ soft kiss?

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When you see how connected all things have to be

Love takes on Aliveness, to those who are free

of frail little walls in a scared thinking mind

which needs to feel safe more than needs to be kind

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You see through those walls when you smile at a bird

in thanks for the song that your love-formed ears heard

You tear through the veil, when you witness and sigh

the golden orange sunsets, and sacred sunrise

When you play with a child, not for them, but for you

When you wish on a star, all you long to come true

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Its a Love like that Love, that is watching you now

But She’s bigger than you, so She has more Love Power

Revealing to you who you are and are not.

Setting you free when you think are caught

Love never stops Loving or Guiding your life

She’s there in your peace, in your joy and your strife

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Love kisses your forehead as you fall asleep

Love kisses each tear of your heart when it weeps

Love gives you the dreams to set sweet soul above

a world that made rules which are not based in Love

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“I love you! I love you! I love you!” Love sighs,

“Through all of your lives and your lies and your cries,

I love you unto each and every new birth

I save you from bodies before grave or hearse

I Am the True Love which Gives flesh its Sweet Life

I Am Love Eternal, the Source of All Light

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“So when you feel love for your weird little cat

Know that I’ve loved you for centuries like that.

And I love you now, and I’ll help you to heal

I’ll whisper your Truth when you’re quiet and still.”

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The Hour Of The Changing Light

She teaches me

how fast it all goes,

how to savor This.

Were it not for Her

I may have spent life

not living,

only doing,

fretting and frittering

my fading hours away

in endless to-do’s

and

never

ever

ever

be.

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She makes me feel

a soft yet horribly deep sorrow

at the time I’ve lost

within the false state:

Alive, but not recognizing Life! 

The state of unreason

cultures are built upon.

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She reminds me to honor

in Sacred Devotion and Gratitude

The setting Sun,

sacred in its own right,

and all it represents:

All that Enters and gives Life,

then leaves us alone in Night,

to softly find a way back in,

to lure us into Light again.

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The cycles of Life,

of Light

of Love,

The cycles of All Creation.

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All this She Teaches

in Her sensual adieu

To the God of The Golden Orange Light,

whose Emergence and Disappearance

Form the Magic Hour

Where yin and yang kiss,

And become one another,

And the veil between

fades to naught.

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The realm of opposites join here:

Ra to Luna.

Birth to Death.

Light to Dark.

God to Man,

The hour in which we may

 whisper to Spirits,

And Spirits may whisper

Sacred Truths to us.

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She devotes Herself

to Ra’s egress

with all Her Western faces.

Her delicate, graceful fingers,

gently caressing even the last fleeting trace

of precious fading Light.

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I feel Her yearning, reaching,

even unto the last dying sunbeam.

So glorious, to see a Tree in Prayer!

So glorious to be aware!

So glorious to have Eyes that See,

 if only in shared sunsets,

in which She helps me enter,

The Sacred Awareness.

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She awakens me

through gentleness

through delicacy,

That I may see with Pure eyes.

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She lures my Awareness

 into the most subtle aspects of Her Grace

That I may recognize within myself,

all I am drawn to in Her.

In the breath, in the poise, in the fingers,

in the step, in the balance, in the motion,

in the gentleness and the delicacy,

the busy noise of mind can fade

that I may discover

even the to-do’s

are better achieved

When lost in the gentleness and grace of the doing.

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My Great Teacher,

What greater lesson could be taught,

than how to be Alive in Life?

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Magic things happen

through the Sacred Awareness,

In the Hour of the Changing Light.

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